survivors2thrivers has been born from my own experience of surviving a car wreck and waking up from a coma in 2001 alone in a strange hospital room — I was lost and afraid, and over the next many years, frustration became my life. I tried every medical, holistic, and alternative treatment imaginable, but I lived in an unreasonably constant fear and agitation. I wished I could find joy and engagement with life.
I wanted so badly to feel alive, but I felt straightjacketed by something I couldn’t seem to grasp or understand. I could have deep conversations, but couldn’t sit with myself. I craved friends, but was unwilling to be a friend. I wanted so badly to be in love, but wouldn’t love myself. I graduated college Cum Laude and had great job prospects, but my heart was suffocating. The substance of my life had no substance. I drank my sadness to silence and tearlessly cried my way through the world.
This is not a woe-is-me story. I’m sharing my journey through what I’ve learned is PTSD with hopes that it will help others find their way. This is a launchpad from which we shed our fears and our stuckness, and ultimately find more life in our lives. Let us all become survivors2thrivers.